If you don't know what it is you're looking for you're NEVER going to find it. You have to be clear on what it is you're seeking.
It's difficult for me to describe my own music; every song is an experience that I set to music. There's no lyrics, no singer, just instruments, but I'm sure you can feel what the song is talking about just by listen to it. I can't describe a feeling, my songs are feelings.