I feel inauthentic at a party. . . . Going to a party is a 'low' activity - the authentic self is compromised, fragmented - one plays 'roles. ' One isn't fully present, beyond role-playing. One doesn't (can't) tell the full truth, which means one is lying, even if one doesn't literally tell lies.
You're never more alive than in battle. " "Never more dead after," I say.