People are so tired. The world is set up to exhaust you and drain you. That's how humankind has devised their world. Life is not necessarily that way
I feel like my life is at its happiest when I don't have a looming deadline. There's some really groovy wonderful times, when I'm like, "I have a new piece, I'm excited about it, I'm reading all these books about it, but there's not a lot of time pressure, and I'm financially stable enough right now that I don't have to be trying to get another job. " But that's so rare.