Darwinism as presented by Darwin contradicted idealistic philosophy, and this contradiction grew deeper with the development of its materialist teaching.
It's just never the same. At least for me. It's probably because it's just who I am, I never know what that [truth] is. It's so momentary to go, "Oh, yeah, that's true. " That's a fundamental starting point for me - to figure out what's true from moment to moment to moment.