Consensus reality seemed like a dull, dead-end street compared to the intense, mutable reality of visions or whatever they were - neurological misfires. I expected life to be full of sudden, inexplicable surprises. When these things didn't happen for a while, life seemed dull and painful.
You can talk about your Psalms and your John 3:16. Well, Austin 3:16 says I just whooped your *ss.